MY HERO

Where do I start?  Two hours after posting my last post, I noticed lower back pain and cramping.  I thought I was just tired so I took a nap and tried to relax.  All the next day the cramping came and went, but for some reason, it didn't seem to make me worried.  It wasn't until I began spotting and the bleeding that I realized I was miscarrying.  Is that a word?  It wasn't my first but it was still awful.  However, I feel so wrapped up in the Spirit's healing power.  I feel so comforted and blessed to have been able to have children and that I can have more.  My biggest blessing right now is my husband.  WHAT A MAN!  He spent several days basically waiting on me hand and foot.  He did ALL the laundry, including folding it and hanging it up.  He made meals, cleaned the kitchen (over and over), and gave luvies to crying kids.  There is nothing more incredible in this world than a man who knows how to be a DADDY.  He did all this while worrying about work and all the stuff he needed to get done there.  Even though he is under a time crunch, he took time off so I could stay down.  Speaking of work, he works with the most incredible people.  When his co-workers found out what happened, they petitioned HR to give him bereavement leave.  He was given 2 paid days off.   We feel so blessed by the support of those friends around us.

We were lucky to have a nice break for our anniversary.  (It was last month, but this was the first chance we had to celebrate it.)  Our parents took our kids for a night (thank you, thank you, THANK YOU)  and we had an incredible two days to fall in love with each other again.  We had so much fun together.  We saw "Brave" which was AWESOME by the way, went for drives, and got Jason a new bow for his violin.  We then spent time playing music together yesterday while the kids played musical chairs.  Jason is still my best friend and the best part of my life!  He is my hero!  He will change diapers, cook if I don't feel like it, makes cookies almost as good as my mom's, and can organize better than anyone I know. 

While spending so much time in bed-which was a very scary reminiscence of being anemic for all those months a few years ago-I had lots of random thoughts to occupy me.

1. There is an ant colony just outside my laundry room window.  Those ants seem determined to make an ant hill out of my laundry basket.  Are they lazy ants?  They don't want to have to burrow their own hill in the dirt?  They just use the tunnels in the folds of the laundry.  The problem is, it's my goal to see the bottom of the laundry basket every day, even if that mean dumping out all the laundry and then putting it all back.  
2. Rocks.  I dreamed about rocks more than once.  Does anyone want some rocks for landscaping?  Anyone, anyone?
3. I'm a mean mom.  I'm a good mom.  It went back and forth over the last week.  I guess that means I'm a normal mom.  Huh.  I guess I wanted to be wonder woman.
4. My kids are growing up.  They did an awesome job playing together quietly for 3 days.  They made their own lunches and learned how to clean up.  I guess I'm not the only one to learn from this experience.  I hope the education sticks.
5. There are some really weird birds around my neighborhood that make really weird sounds.
6. I missed playing my piano.  I think I take it for granted too often that I even have one.  It relaxes me.

It's time for me to jump back in to real life.  Natalie is naked screaming about her shortened bath and the house is a mess.  I love being a stay at home mom!